What I'm Doing

Just finished my shower-bath, see it's late.  Doing my nails, again..  Cut my bangs.  Guess I have to pack and do my lunch, might go to bed and plan to wake up early, but my parents will be in the kitchen so maybe not.  :/

What do you think?

So, what do you think about Ellen DeGeneres?  She seems to be prejudiced about kids being cool.  Like, that's been like her sorta game.  She has lots of games like that.  She seems kinda mad about me just because of the n word thing, and my life's been tested because I got tired of school and other kids didn't.

Carousel of Progress

Ellen DeGeneres, stop pretending to send me stupid messages.  I deserve to get what I want.  What is wrong with her?  Stop wasting my time, you baboon, you useless gamer.  You have no sense of humor and you just hurt people.  You're not allowed to stop the progress I expect.

Roller Coaster

Why are people from California and Florida like me all acting like life goes on a roller coaster?  Maybe, go move somewhere else.  That's just something you do for fun, not a way to hurt people!  WHAT THE FUCK IS YOUR PROBLEM?

chickins

WHAT IS THIS?  STOP ATTACKING ME, ELLEN DEGENERES AND ORLA FALLON.  Stop being dummies and tell me what ya'll are up to.  You can't control me because of the mistakes that others have made.  I think I am fine, finer than you.

You're just chickins.

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Oh, I wish I would have called..I forgot what I was going to say- Anyway..Forgot again. Well, with me, she made a connection. I know at 1 point that I thought Anastasia was tacky like a New Yo'ker I guess from somewhere other than SW NY. :/ Anyway. ;D I don't think Amy likes either of us because my dad is from Pennsylvania and not like a major area like Pittsburgh or Allentown.. I think that people are always really sensitive to people who started life in a major area of Florida, so I've always not really explored that since there's nothing in it for me without parents from Florida and with my dad not having any modern culture, so me not having any foot in the culture, though my mom isn't even American. She got her citizenship when I was a kid. It was so funny..ha hahah something you'd have liked to have influenced and I wished I would be esteemed in. I wasn't really bothered, as you can see. Amy is a nice girl, different. Perhaps, people born around 1990 are a bit unattractive, I mean in generality, not to point fingers, must have been a cuter kid than me, I mean. :} She's not exactly intellectual, so I don't think I can connect to her. She sees me as a physically fit person who's awake to the culture. I think she was interested in me, but we were leaving anyway. She didn't really make a move. xp They were connecting better than me, unfortunately, was kinda thinking that Amy would connect with me, you know? Not sure why I got along so well with Anastasia. It was because I think people from NYC are more out in the public and for some reason I can see certain people from the East I know as white? So, Anastasia, was like really mad at Amy and like attacking her the whole time, and Amy pretty much just stood there and was feeling sorry for herself.. They were so close up and connected. I have no idea why Amy cared because I would just probably not have that happen. Ah! :/ Anastasia, yes, she just didn't want Amy to act like she was black. I don't know why she decided to make a scene of it. So, that was why she was acting like that. She shouldn't have attacked. I guess it startled Anastasia, like for fun. I know people from NYC do that stuff.. :/ My life just because more action-packed or high-pitched today. =^ I dunno, I was attacked by Tim Burton all the time and people he knows sexually, not that you just you, anyway well what happened was he is picky about like me sculpting every move like I'm a robot and not very mobile, and that's like all he ever thinks about. The sad fact is I've spent lots of my life "guiltily" doing that and now I'm kinda more prone to my mom's side, which is the natural side, right? My biggest problem I told the therapist (from Miami) and police. I walked around Orlando since like 2005 and I would just feel jolts of torture in public and that's why I just stayed home for like 7 years. So, I mentioned that because I can't like make myself think positive all the time and I still expect to get some attention? My friends stopped talking to me. My ideas are always flipping, I can't just robotically slice myself into the truth. It seems like it would hurt. :I Soo..it might be an issue the kinds of students that you get, not sure why they are in college? I mean, good they want to take your class. Lots of people would, you know. I have no idea how they would care. We just have like a mental block. I'm genuinely interested in everyone, in any culture in the U.S., not 1 for Europe and just the beach. :I Okay, thanks for your concern. I hope that you become more attentive to your students's psychiatric needs and qualms. :I I just was really concerned, not sure who else to tell, maybe will talk to her other teacher but maybe not since I'm not in that class and can't monitor what she would do. Thankss. Oh, yes, her mood switched and she turned against us like she was cool and it was okay since you know she admits that, but I think she is just well-intended. I sorta escaped the social scene when I left Florida, so I haven't really gotten into that. Again, yes, thanks, was just worried, can print it out for my rehearsal journal. I was just worried Amy got hurt, not worried about the New Yo'ker.. Thanks. =}

maybe ill go over cheer

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Hey, Ginny, we just practiced. I think that the girl from NYC, who is African-American, was really upset the whole time for some reason wanting the girl with the curly very fair hair from California (English) to connect with her, not as separate, so I was worried about her. I found she is a singer and am going to her performance class next week. Maybe, you should get to know this person.. http://cab1986orlfl15.blogspot.com/2013/02/practice.html Sorry, I hope I’m not bothering, just thought I was supposed to let you know, somehow, on your site. Don’t want to take up too much, just thought it was significant, sure you think so, too..

Christina AJ Barrett: Practice

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Gonna take a shower-bath, blog, possibly sing, and go to bed!  Leave early tomorrow.  Guess I get my cell phone Wednesday after the therapist appointment?  Or Friday.  :{

Was full from a full wrap..went to the bathroom a lot.  Missed the bus and had to pull the chord without knowing what I was doing but succeeded.

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It also shows a picture of the vase with flowers.

It won’t copy now, guess I’ll copy it later..

Practice

So, the black girl from NYC when she was 13, 10 years ago, pretty much didn’t want the white blonde with very fair, curly hair, with an English origin family, to like not connect with her because of race.  Then, the Cali girl treated us like we weren’t from Florida nor Cali.  I don’t have some stupid culture test.  Anyway, so, you black girl were like yelling in her face the entire script!  Too bad she has no one to turn to.  :’{  I’m going to her voice performance class next week I think.  Help!  :0

Bye 4 Now

So, I'll meet the girls, and then I'll go to the library to print out a map, probably post here, who knows what.  Want to get a new cell phone tonight.

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How Things Are Swingin

I had to recall, again.  I got the bus route down, no cell, could ask my parents to schedule a trip but don't think they have time, sounds like the bus comes on the hour by the hour.

The Plan -:{

calling again
might walk to the bus, but I don't have a cell phone so not sure if I should or not, could ask the bus driver for help, know the area
so, it'll take 3 hours?
it keeps saying 10 calls ahead - this is so worthless, I have to reserve 2 hours in advance and get there by 2 so leave by 12:30 P.M., so a little more than an hour, 9 calls ahead

Stop

They stopped telling me how many people are ahead.  Might call back.  Checking bus service.  Will probably have to leave soon.  }=

The Reason ... I Wake up Every Day

The reason I didn't like my cousin was because she got all the attention and acted like she was white and I wasn't, that she was whiter and I wasn't that white.

Waiting and Hoping for * to Appear

I'm waiting for the pick-up line '8|.

14 calls ahead for like 5 minutes
10 calls ahead for like 3-4 minutes
9 calls ahead *rattle*

2 hours in advance

Ate

2 cracker sticks with dip
crackers with spread (Cream Cheese & Chives)
leftover hot dog - Oscar Meyer Weiner bun length my dad got beef franks with wheat bun and Heinz ketchup, like ¾+ hot dog
Chef Boyardee canned macaroni & cheese
1¼ wheat bagels with crunchy Peter Pan peanut butter and grape jelly with no fruit

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