Ginny, I forget why, but I was concerned about you. I'm adn adult so can talk to you. I'm more mature than most adults and pretty energetic and smart. Maybe, I was just worried about you at Lakeside. I used to clip my nails, short, all off, every 2 days or so... I got out after a month, after just being at home for like 2 years or whatnot. So, you can see me on YouTube, I have my nails before were like more sorta specific. The only good thing now is they are harder and I've taken pills. I went in there, and the black people made them not as slanted and round. The world made them look like toenails "because of the baby Jew." I really don't care about the black bossy people in Orlando. They think you need to get it out, but no one else does. The only good thing about Orlando is for some reason it's a vacation spot. It's located in the most exciting place in the world. I've never lived in Central Florida growing up. I did live in Miramar. I didn't really have problems in other places, like Coral Springs. New Orleans probably has the best weather. I mean, I guess it's been thought of a lot, not really overrated..
Showing posts with label Ginny. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Ginny. Show all posts
Saturday, February 9, 2013
Crossing Ginny's Eyes
I was thinking, er, the question was what would be the better option only living in Florida|California (where I've never been) only for a significant time?
Friday, February 8, 2013
After Class
The teacher asked me if I was gonna kill anyone. She also asked me about theater, said it was my 2nd option, I did music and maybe singing major.
Got Mad in Class, Again..
So, I kicked my stuff around and made some rustle between breaking thinking of how none of the protocols in Orlando matter because I know I'm from Florida, I left, for New Orleans, and I came back.
In Class
The teacher was gonna feel my back for a long time for Voice for the Actor, but she said you wanna do me and I jumped up and did it.. Well, she seemed to have a big hollow sound through her back, and her throat is also her core|key.
me @ class - dance - 1½ min
YouTube
Some of it didn't record, neither did my psyc reading, with a blonde lady in her 50s or something.
Some of it didn't record, neither did my psyc reading, with a blonde lady in her 50s or something.
Thursday, February 7, 2013
Dream
I remember for a long time, 1st Ginny Kopf said suggested she was having a baby and it was because of a sequence of events of something I did annoying, or wrong. We were like on a running belt. I wasn't mad, in particular, but I was very generally just upset at the turn of events. I probably was being quite bad. I think she had me hit my forehead, where I really hit it doing a sumersault. I came to but was a bit knocked out in my head, so she picked me up, felt much older and bigger than me. It felt really good, just realized, and I was pretty comfortable. It was a long time. She noticed I had my legs folded up with pressure around her body in the air, so it was right when I put them down. So, she was making me feel good. I don't remember all the dynamics, but you can imagine.
After that, I was in my grandma's house with my older aunt and little brother. We watched a movie I forget or watched something short else before that wasn't exactly a public show. I was recording my brother and mainly me watching. I dug in my backpack and realized I could charge the camera on the computer in the morning, like when my brother was on it. I went to the bathroom, like there were 3 bathrooms in a made-up maze. I went, but I realized 2 red lights outside might be a wolf, last night heard a noise, not sure what it was, maybe a click and hiss, and saw like a light twice coming up from a level of where my head was. It was like green. There is a little green blinking light in that area. So, I went out of the bathroom, people glad there would be my poo, pee, and toilet paper in it to prove I got out, and I never saw the wolf come but I made it inside, feeling I guess a bit paralyzed and irritated, you know sick like I am now. So, I got in and went to the bathroom somewhere else, was in line, but I found I was gonna play an oboe. I played pressing the keys, noticed my ring finger was up. I think it was Ginny teaching, but I came up and realized it was an old, fat man. I was doing "I Love the Mountains." I never played it. The person, obviously, well on the way I was anticipating that I was new, saw a girl with like a small, plastic bassoon, which is like a clarinet|oboe shaped like a horn, and it turned out I was "talented," or I could feel music. They were just a ring master and enjoying the beat, but it came out like it was a program, like a little blast or sorta band of noise, you know? I think I learned that in choir and liked the music I heard when I was little and as a baby watched MTV and my naked dad.
So, Ginny was looking down at me, and I had to stay with her because my head hurt. I woke up feeling good, with a blanket against my butt and back. I tried to put on my slipper standing on 1 foot but was dizzy and couldn't do it. I have fluffy boot slippers. I'm still dizzy and holding myself in place.
After that, I was in my grandma's house with my older aunt and little brother. We watched a movie I forget or watched something short else before that wasn't exactly a public show. I was recording my brother and mainly me watching. I dug in my backpack and realized I could charge the camera on the computer in the morning, like when my brother was on it. I went to the bathroom, like there were 3 bathrooms in a made-up maze. I went, but I realized 2 red lights outside might be a wolf, last night heard a noise, not sure what it was, maybe a click and hiss, and saw like a light twice coming up from a level of where my head was. It was like green. There is a little green blinking light in that area. So, I went out of the bathroom, people glad there would be my poo, pee, and toilet paper in it to prove I got out, and I never saw the wolf come but I made it inside, feeling I guess a bit paralyzed and irritated, you know sick like I am now. So, I got in and went to the bathroom somewhere else, was in line, but I found I was gonna play an oboe. I played pressing the keys, noticed my ring finger was up. I think it was Ginny teaching, but I came up and realized it was an old, fat man. I was doing "I Love the Mountains." I never played it. The person, obviously, well on the way I was anticipating that I was new, saw a girl with like a small, plastic bassoon, which is like a clarinet|oboe shaped like a horn, and it turned out I was "talented," or I could feel music. They were just a ring master and enjoying the beat, but it came out like it was a program, like a little blast or sorta band of noise, you know? I think I learned that in choir and liked the music I heard when I was little and as a baby watched MTV and my naked dad.
So, Ginny was looking down at me, and I had to stay with her because my head hurt. I woke up feeling good, with a blanket against my butt and back. I tried to put on my slipper standing on 1 foot but was dizzy and couldn't do it. I have fluffy boot slippers. I'm still dizzy and holding myself in place.
Wednesday, February 6, 2013
Something Funny
Why does Nell Burton seem to be made of like something sorta outlined in like sticky white plastic filled with white fluffy stuff, like gauze or a diaper, because I heard that Tim Burton's parents are from Canada. :o
My teacher Ginny's dad is from Pittsburgh, and her mom is from California, and she is from the San Fransisco area, Santa Clara. :} Also, some cities are considered better than country areas, officially, and others not. The other sad fact is there's a big thing like of say northern Pennsylvania or the Amish if not, which came as a surprise. See, people think below Pennsylvania is Southern.. ? I guess Canada is European. I'm not sure what the funny thing is.. ? Tim Burton seems to have had good parents, but how do we know for sure? There's a big thing about the Baby Boomers being a problem, but Tim Burton is a Late Boomer. Late Bloomer is also a word. Sometimes, people with older parents are Late Bloomers. (That means they mature later..)
I don't see why California would be unfeeling and that Canada would be feeling.
My teacher Ginny's dad is from Pittsburgh, and her mom is from California, and she is from the San Fransisco area, Santa Clara. :} Also, some cities are considered better than country areas, officially, and others not. The other sad fact is there's a big thing like of say northern Pennsylvania or the Amish if not, which came as a surprise. See, people think below Pennsylvania is Southern.. ? I guess Canada is European. I'm not sure what the funny thing is.. ? Tim Burton seems to have had good parents, but how do we know for sure? There's a big thing about the Baby Boomers being a problem, but Tim Burton is a Late Boomer. Late Bloomer is also a word. Sometimes, people with older parents are Late Bloomers. (That means they mature later..)
I don't see why California would be unfeeling and that Canada would be feeling.
Agitation
So, in class, when we were lying down a long time, I spread my legs in agitation to the chairs.
Class
After class, the teacher had a meeting, was supposed to talk to me..thought it meant something. In my hw, she told me to keep doing that, too. Had a meeting with a female. Got mad and ripped my paper because I kept asking her. I didn't get it, could have asked her another day, didn't think of it. She should have just left. I held the door open, and she didn't care, I think, but cared ABOUT THAT GIRL FROM CALIFORNIA because otherwise she would probably just be grumpy. What a useless- Well, she ripped my paper with her pen. She was trying to. She crossed it out again, too, a lot. She told me the wrong page or someone did. So, stay after and ask the teacher and I guess tell them if someone told you wrong.
Class, Yesterday
So, I walked across the room and lay on the couch a bit, walked up to the teacher and walked out. I saw a guy for the next class, told him not to go in, and he knew the class was guilty, unsure what was up. I had my heeled boots on. I don't have boots without heels. :| They don't sell many around.
Facebook Post
To: http://www.facebook.com/ginny.kopf
Hi, I wanted to talk to you, about class. ... I hope you had a good class today. I'll think about it in my blog, about how to have a better experience. I was just worried about it, nothing wrong with that, does show I'm interested in something others think is too late. Not sure exactly what my point was, though. I thought of what bothered me and got tired and forgot about it. I got a lot done talking about it, tonight, though. Well, hope we have a good class session Thursday. Not sure how to make it better. It's Mardi Gras at Valencia, so should make a difference. So, I blogger about the class today on my blog, which is my #1 thing in this existence other than maybe unorganized possibilities..who knows what that would mean..? So, I blogged about the class.. http://cab1986orlfl15.blogspot.com/2013/02/facebookpost20130206-1.html
Hi, I wanted to talk to you, about class. I got something to quell me and distract me from the kids in the Voice for the Actor class, guess that older guy started it, is younger than you just a little.. So, when the guy bothered me I just wouldn't have it, wanted to do something back but couldn't really get myself to shrug it off. People are just mean to me. They don't care what I say. I don't want to do this. I don't see them as native Floridians. If they are, they are just in the stuff. So many kids in the class were like hissing curse words. Did you tell them to do that, just for fun, because I mean I don't think I would do that, not sure why that would be okay. Guess it just came up, then? I have a right to take class from you at college. The problem was the students, not sure what it is. So, I did notice, maybe you did, that you were mad at me because I was upset. Seems like you want me to be a suck up. I don't mean anything bad using the term a "suck up," just a cute word. You're acting like since I am not submissive to the Floridian culture that maybe I have to assimilate to a proper way of living as a contemporary citizen, of the U.S. I was just worried about the way you seem to want us to be like goody-goods, or else the class would make me go out of control wondering if I'm Floridian. I'm mixed, but I actually grew up in Florida. I was wondering why you are uptight on Facebook because everyone online is not very giving online, and it is actually "the" opportunity, not something you can take for granted to save a spot for later? I was hoping your classes would be fun. 3( You seem to be ring leading your current students but I see you already appear to be old in some way. I'm not sure if I'm in the right place or if you're just a competitive person, maybe more important than most all the other teachers, at least in Florida. Like, you seem to want to know if I want something, felt that you just wanted something from me and then pretty much don't want to talk to me, like you want something but you don't talk. I don't know who I was to start off with, more was my mom's kid and had to live with my dad. My mom gives me what I want and is strict. I don't know what's wrong with my dad. I don't feel that European myself around him but at least have a connection. I do feel more physical. It's just that around my mom I look more European, at least before. In Florida, all people cared about was like how my life wasn't very physically pleasurable. After I came back from elsewhere, it became more in line with some focal idea. It's just that I don't really mold who I am in that way. I know the reason I look Jewish is because it's like a pull away from "being a gymnast." Anyway, it's late and I also want to do something else. I hope the pacifiers I got will keep me occupied in class, keep me from crying, which I am so not prone to ever do in a bad way anymore unless someone summoned it. I think I am just mad that people don't think I am a true Floridian when I've been here since birth. It's just because my dad is from Pennsylvania, but I think it's cool. I think they just want my parents for themselves, themselves. With you, I am concerned about your getting out, like your maybe hoping for the future while maybe people like me will move on. I will move on because I realize my goals and don't lackadaisically put them off, why would you think otherwise? I just feed myself and rest and then everyone comes to me for the ***. I never did anything wrong, so it's a lie to think not.. :V I feel controlled by Italians born in the mid|late 70s. People are just questioning what I've done and changing my future because of Tim Burton, just admit it. You're just saying I can't be cool because my dad is from Pennsylvania and not like Florida nor L.A. nor somewhere else in California.. I will not listen to rules from Pennsylvania of fake things. I don't even know why this is. I can see if it's for fun, but it seems like it's because of something I did wrong. If I have a tight situation, you can't make it all the tighter like that's when that is. I thought you were down-to-earth and Western, why I took your class, plus you also seemed like a beckoning figure, all the same. Guess you're also ½ Pennsylvanian. I think Pennsylvania is now just priced for the separate Amish whatever, perhaps where my relatives live now, and maybe for the prestige of your city, of which I know not. However, my relatives aren't all European ethnically. It is my understanding most people aren't, so then it doesn't matter. People are a bit stand-offish to me from having an all Chinese mom. The thing is my dad is not my mom, and most people are not mothered by their dads. 1st, my egg is from my mom, and I was pregnated in her. Then, I knew she was my mom! Then, I stayed with her.. So, I'm loading footage of me talking tonight. That'll make me feel better. You know, you know it's wrong to say you have to give up something to make an accurate statement. Pretty much everyone just kinda keeps going doing that, as though it's their relief. Well, fine, let it out. Ah, guess I'll be taking my leave, for now, write an intro to this. You seem awfully bored by my company but maybe interested. I am concerned about people joking about you. I guess I just don't find it cool, just them saying they're jealous and mad they aren't as good and don't feel like moving. I know that they like to have fun with me. It's just that they think ooh maybe I'm Christina. Haha, dunno.
Hi, I wanted to talk to you, about class. ... I hope you had a good class today. I'll think about it in my blog, about how to have a better experience. I was just worried about it, nothing wrong with that, does show I'm interested in something others think is too late. Not sure exactly what my point was, though. I thought of what bothered me and got tired and forgot about it. I got a lot done talking about it, tonight, though. Well, hope we have a good class session Thursday. Not sure how to make it better. It's Mardi Gras at Valencia, so should make a difference. So, I blogger about the class today on my blog, which is my #1 thing in this existence other than maybe unorganized possibilities..who knows what that would mean..? So, I blogged about the class.. http://cab1986orlfl15.blogspot.com/2013/02/facebookpost20130206-1.html
Hi, I wanted to talk to you, about class. I got something to quell me and distract me from the kids in the Voice for the Actor class, guess that older guy started it, is younger than you just a little.. So, when the guy bothered me I just wouldn't have it, wanted to do something back but couldn't really get myself to shrug it off. People are just mean to me. They don't care what I say. I don't want to do this. I don't see them as native Floridians. If they are, they are just in the stuff. So many kids in the class were like hissing curse words. Did you tell them to do that, just for fun, because I mean I don't think I would do that, not sure why that would be okay. Guess it just came up, then? I have a right to take class from you at college. The problem was the students, not sure what it is. So, I did notice, maybe you did, that you were mad at me because I was upset. Seems like you want me to be a suck up. I don't mean anything bad using the term a "suck up," just a cute word. You're acting like since I am not submissive to the Floridian culture that maybe I have to assimilate to a proper way of living as a contemporary citizen, of the U.S. I was just worried about the way you seem to want us to be like goody-goods, or else the class would make me go out of control wondering if I'm Floridian. I'm mixed, but I actually grew up in Florida. I was wondering why you are uptight on Facebook because everyone online is not very giving online, and it is actually "the" opportunity, not something you can take for granted to save a spot for later? I was hoping your classes would be fun. 3( You seem to be ring leading your current students but I see you already appear to be old in some way. I'm not sure if I'm in the right place or if you're just a competitive person, maybe more important than most all the other teachers, at least in Florida. Like, you seem to want to know if I want something, felt that you just wanted something from me and then pretty much don't want to talk to me, like you want something but you don't talk. I don't know who I was to start off with, more was my mom's kid and had to live with my dad. My mom gives me what I want and is strict. I don't know what's wrong with my dad. I don't feel that European myself around him but at least have a connection. I do feel more physical. It's just that around my mom I look more European, at least before. In Florida, all people cared about was like how my life wasn't very physically pleasurable. After I came back from elsewhere, it became more in line with some focal idea. It's just that I don't really mold who I am in that way. I know the reason I look Jewish is because it's like a pull away from "being a gymnast." Anyway, it's late and I also want to do something else. I hope the pacifiers I got will keep me occupied in class, keep me from crying, which I am so not prone to ever do in a bad way anymore unless someone summoned it. I think I am just mad that people don't think I am a true Floridian when I've been here since birth. It's just because my dad is from Pennsylvania, but I think it's cool. I think they just want my parents for themselves, themselves. With you, I am concerned about your getting out, like your maybe hoping for the future while maybe people like me will move on. I will move on because I realize my goals and don't lackadaisically put them off, why would you think otherwise? I just feed myself and rest and then everyone comes to me for the ***. I never did anything wrong, so it's a lie to think not.. :V I feel controlled by Italians born in the mid|late 70s. People are just questioning what I've done and changing my future because of Tim Burton, just admit it. You're just saying I can't be cool because my dad is from Pennsylvania and not like Florida nor L.A. nor somewhere else in California.. I will not listen to rules from Pennsylvania of fake things. I don't even know why this is. I can see if it's for fun, but it seems like it's because of something I did wrong. If I have a tight situation, you can't make it all the tighter like that's when that is. I thought you were down-to-earth and Western, why I took your class, plus you also seemed like a beckoning figure, all the same. Guess you're also ½ Pennsylvanian. I think Pennsylvania is now just priced for the separate Amish whatever, perhaps where my relatives live now, and maybe for the prestige of your city, of which I know not. However, my relatives aren't all European ethnically. It is my understanding most people aren't, so then it doesn't matter. People are a bit stand-offish to me from having an all Chinese mom. The thing is my dad is not my mom, and most people are not mothered by their dads. 1st, my egg is from my mom, and I was pregnated in her. Then, I knew she was my mom! Then, I stayed with her.. So, I'm loading footage of me talking tonight. That'll make me feel better. You know, you know it's wrong to say you have to give up something to make an accurate statement. Pretty much everyone just kinda keeps going doing that, as though it's their relief. Well, fine, let it out. Ah, guess I'll be taking my leave, for now, write an intro to this. You seem awfully bored by my company but maybe interested. I am concerned about people joking about you. I guess I just don't find it cool, just them saying they're jealous and mad they aren't as good and don't feel like moving. I know that they like to have fun with me. It's just that they think ooh maybe I'm Christina. Haha, dunno.
Tuesday, February 5, 2013
Facebook Post & Like
I hope you find what you're looking for. I think that I'd have to say my initial vision that I can right now conceive is that that is something like me. It's best to get someone intellectually in the mood, thinking the right stuff, who has a background that says yes I'm ready for this now ya'll. I don't think you'll necessarily be able to find like someone of a set image to gawk over, not sure why that would suddenly touch you. Hey I'm just trying to get across a message to see what you're really saying because I don't really get it now nor am sure if I ever would get that. Hey, know anyone from Florida, I mean with like parents from Florida? I don't. I think I've met Californians. I imagine and know my parents have. They sound like hysterical, kind people my mom can connect with. I have a problem with people from the city in Pennsylvania but changed my mind to say okay Pittsburgh might be okay, the biggest city, doesn't have too funny a name, must be the spot. I mean, I really like people from places like New Jersey, Ohio, .. Wisconsin!. I think like San Fransisco. I guess San Diego seems like a good place. Reminds me of places like Chicago. You already knew that in that way? I think the big thing is people with a twang. I'm more about people who feed off of like George Bush. I do believe that Pennsylvania is way down south, and Pittsburgh is like the New Orleans area. New York is the new Pennsylvania. Pennsylvania is indeed a good place for nature but might not have as many mountains. I mean yea, but it's not really as cold, I don't know much else but that like Virginia has greener, nicer mountains. Well, anyway, that's pretty interesting.. Why not get Tim Burton? He's currently that way, for some reason. Maybe, he just wants something to do. He never really seems to be all that dazzling. Hey, why is Tim Burton not on the same track? He's just there to say he's racist to people like me. Why is my life so hard and such a failure? People are so suggestive to me, not sure why they aren't interested. Anyway, hope this was not too long. I liked your writing and what you said. xp I was just interested and wanted to talk with you and Ginny. =}
Monday, February 4, 2013
Facebook Post
Oh, I wish I would have called..I forgot what I was going to say- Anyway..Forgot again. Well, with me, she made a connection. I know at 1 point that I thought Anastasia was tacky like a New Yo'ker I guess from somewhere other than SW NY. :/ Anyway. ;D I don't think Amy likes either of us because my dad is from Pennsylvania and not like a major area like Pittsburgh or Allentown.. I think that people are always really sensitive to people who started life in a major area of Florida, so I've always not really explored that since there's nothing in it for me without parents from Florida and with my dad not having any modern culture, so me not having any foot in the culture, though my mom isn't even American. She got her citizenship when I was a kid. It was so funny..ha hahah something you'd have liked to have influenced and I wished I would be esteemed in. I wasn't really bothered, as you can see. Amy is a nice girl, different. Perhaps, people born around 1990 are a bit unattractive, I mean in generality, not to point fingers, must have been a cuter kid than me, I mean. :} She's not exactly intellectual, so I don't think I can connect to her. She sees me as a physically fit person who's awake to the culture. I think she was interested in me, but we were leaving anyway. She didn't really make a move. xp They were connecting better than me, unfortunately, was kinda thinking that Amy would connect with me, you know? Not sure why I got along so well with Anastasia. It was because I think people from NYC are more out in the public and for some reason I can see certain people from the East I know as white? So, Anastasia, was like really mad at Amy and like attacking her the whole time, and Amy pretty much just stood there and was feeling sorry for herself.. They were so close up and connected. I have no idea why Amy cared because I would just probably not have that happen. Ah! :/ Anastasia, yes, she just didn't want Amy to act like she was black. I don't know why she decided to make a scene of it. So, that was why she was acting like that. She shouldn't have attacked. I guess it startled Anastasia, like for fun. I know people from NYC do that stuff.. :/ My life just because more action-packed or high-pitched today. =^ I dunno, I was attacked by Tim Burton all the time and people he knows sexually, not that you just you, anyway well what happened was he is picky about like me sculpting every move like I'm a robot and not very mobile, and that's like all he ever thinks about. The sad fact is I've spent lots of my life "guiltily" doing that and now I'm kinda more prone to my mom's side, which is the natural side, right? My biggest problem I told the therapist (from Miami) and police. I walked around Orlando since like 2005 and I would just feel jolts of torture in public and that's why I just stayed home for like 7 years. So, I mentioned that because I can't like make myself think positive all the time and I still expect to get some attention? My friends stopped talking to me. My ideas are always flipping, I can't just robotically slice myself into the truth. It seems like it would hurt. :I Soo..it might be an issue the kinds of students that you get, not sure why they are in college? I mean, good they want to take your class. Lots of people would, you know. I have no idea how they would care. We just have like a mental block. I'm genuinely interested in everyone, in any culture in the U.S., not 1 for Europe and just the beach. :I Okay, thanks for your concern. I hope that you become more attentive to your students's psychiatric needs and qualms. :I I just was really concerned, not sure who else to tell, maybe will talk to her other teacher but maybe not since I'm not in that class and can't monitor what she would do. Thankss. Oh, yes, her mood switched and she turned against us like she was cool and it was okay since you know she admits that, but I think she is just well-intended. I sorta escaped the social scene when I left Florida, so I haven't really gotten into that. Again, yes, thanks, was just worried, can print it out for my rehearsal journal. I was just worried Amy got hurt, not worried about the New Yo'ker.. Thanks. =}
Facebook Post
from before
Hey,
Ginny, we just practiced. I think that the girl from NYC, who is
African-American, was really upset the whole time for some reason
wanting the girl with the curly very fair hair from California (English)
to connect with her, not as separate,
so I was worried about her. I found she is a singer and am going to her
performance class next week. Maybe, you should get to know this
person.. http://cab1986orlfl15.blogspot.com/2013/02/practice.html
Sorry, I hope I’m not bothering, just thought I was supposed to let you
know, somehow, on your site. Don’t want to take up too much, just
thought it was significant, sure you think so, too..
Christina AJ Barrett: Practice
cab1986orlfl15.blogspot.com
Facebook Post
It also shows a picture of the vase with flowers.
It won’t
copy now, guess I’ll copy it later..
Practice
So, the black girl from NYC when she was 13, 10 years ago,
pretty much didn’t want the white blonde with very fair, curly hair, with an
English origin family, to like not connect with her because of race. Then, the Cali girl treated us like we weren’t
from Florida nor Cali. I don’t have some
stupid culture test. Anyway, so, you
black girl were like yelling in her face the entire script! Too bad she has no one to turn to. :’{ I’m
going to her voice performance class next week I think. Help!
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