Dream

I had a really good feeling, Ellen DeGeneres was in a dark room with a lot of space with stuff in it and I was on top of her, and it felt so full and strong, like she was a big wild cat I just saw, like she just had *** with it, you know was just on top of it.  Sadly, I left.

Later, I met up with a boy from England and was putting my arms around him walking but not really feeling like I thought it would feel to be with him, you know how I felt seeing the pictures in a very strong  but not like totally loaded feeling..

Contagious

So, watching "The Ellen DeGeneres Show," I was thinking of, "Grandma got run over by a reindeer."  Well, all the white people in the U.S. have ancestors from snowy climates.  It just was wrong that the humor of it was twisted to me.  I think it's not supposed to be that way.  I mean, if it were, okay, but I think it was just a mistake.  Why am I uptight that I might forget more about important things I haven't written down I've imagined?  I mean, I might, but it's not "because Mrs. Ellen DeGeneres says so."  How corny, ha haha ha ha.  3D  She is shaped like a block of ice.

Cool Orleans

I had this really cool friend supposedly from San Fransisco who had lots of cats.  She was just all around the center of attention, whether or not she knows.  She is 1 year older, a month, or maybe so, I think, shy.  I remember because I saw her for her birthday, a bit after, once or twice, and she showed me she finally got some hip clothing.  She knew the popular boy in her year, though born in October or November, from New Orleans, whose best friend died.  She sat with him at pep rallies.  He was so, like, attractive when I interacted with him, like at P.E., sometimes or at least once at length, with the classes separated into 4.  The school was about 200 students per year.  It seems like all we could think about was like oh should you have been on like the dance team?  What about ballet, anyway?  What was I thinking?  What happens to people with dark hair?  I did fit in.  I did make flag team, but since my friend didn't I didn't do it.  They train with band, 1 hour during the day, which would have replaced Art II, "Advanced" Drawing and Painting, and after school a lot.  I guess it was a bit difficult, I mean they don't do this in junior high all the time.  It seemed like I'd make it.  Actually, I was hoping the boy would stay and I'd stay in it.  The drama teacher left, too.  Hardly anyone was in drama, and no one my age, the other few a bit older.  That boy was in choir, too, and sang Titanic as a solo.  I didn't try to get in Talented Music until later.  I found I wanted to quit when I got older and heard it would have been better so much if I did it the 1st year with the other teacher who left.  It was so sucky after my initial year!  I guess a year of Talented Theater did it, too.  The community theater had a dying agenda.  I didn't do theater at NOCCA because Classical Instrumental Music for piano was more smart and connected the arts, better, and gave me more valuable tools.  I might not have went back were I still in high school.  It's not a reliable program and may be for mainstream New Orleanians.  It was fun in the summer, but they don't let you board, since I went.