Saturday, February 9, 2013
Waiting
So, the Asians are waiting to make their move. I think they are kinda German and English but more German.
Alternates
Why don't you just get an Eskimo or Native American indian?
I mean, why don't you kill full indians, today, to get the infor like the Chinese? What's wrong with being born in 1986? I want to be the kid of someone born in 1959.
I mean, why don't you kill full indians, today, to get the infor like the Chinese? What's wrong with being born in 1986? I want to be the kid of someone born in 1959.
Pop the Question
So, non-Europeans have to want to exist, and white people are there for the money, you look for the right thing and play with them. Also, what's so good about being black, and what's so good about having a black nose??
So Tell Me Watcha Want
So, what does Ellen DeGeneres want? A Middle Eastern tween? They have disgusting dark circles on their skin that pop out a little. I guess she doesn't want a white person shaped like that, anyway.
Movers n Doers..
LOOK YOU NIGGERS WHO MOVED TO FL OR LA ... THERE'S NO MORAL ISSUES WITH NIGGERS FROM THE NORTH
the NEW
Britney Spears
Why does Pink look like Ellen DeGeneres as a baby? I looked black, as a baby. Now, I look Jewish and Spanish. The Jews from Europe are not black. Are they anti-Chinese? That's too bad. I'm ½ Chinese. Why doesn't Ellen just listen to me? She probably hurt me in my room. I had problems, without her..
HEY STOP ACTING LIKE YOU HAVE SOMETHING FOR ME
Why does Pink look like Ellen DeGeneres as a baby? I looked black, as a baby. Now, I look Jewish and Spanish. The Jews from Europe are not black. Are they anti-Chinese? That's too bad. I'm ½ Chinese. Why doesn't Ellen just listen to me? She probably hurt me in my room. I had problems, without her..
HEY STOP ACTING LIKE YOU HAVE SOMETHING FOR ME
No Afterlife
So, pretty much, you imagined that like it was okay for other races and then you decided you'd eradicate their future even though you're unattractive and think that someone of another race caused it and you refuse to believe that you will not exist in the afterlife??
Ma-a-ad
Why are people not from Pennsylvania mad and also think that some offspring are the same as their forebearers and wanted shit?
Just Imagine ♫
I just imagined tath
Ellen was mad at a friend from NJ for some reason for being below NE ... and a friend from Boston for being by the water.
Ellen was mad at a friend from NJ for some reason for being below NE ... and a friend from Boston for being by the water.
Funny Feelings
Sometimes, I felt kinda like rearranged. When I think of my dad being from up north .. I think of
Trick
Some people keep going, and they compensate things, as the thing, and claim they don't, people from Canada and New England maybe, rather New Jersey..
Facebook Post
Ginny, I forget why, but I was concerned about you. I'm adn adult so can talk to you. I'm more mature than most adults and pretty energetic and smart. Maybe, I was just worried about you at Lakeside. I used to clip my nails, short, all off, every 2 days or so... I got out after a month, after just being at home for like 2 years or whatnot. So, you can see me on YouTube, I have my nails before were like more sorta specific. The only good thing now is they are harder and I've taken pills. I went in there, and the black people made them not as slanted and round. The world made them look like toenails "because of the baby Jew." I really don't care about the black bossy people in Orlando. They think you need to get it out, but no one else does. The only good thing about Orlando is for some reason it's a vacation spot. It's located in the most exciting place in the world. I've never lived in Central Florida growing up. I did live in Miramar. I didn't really have problems in other places, like Coral Springs. New Orleans probably has the best weather. I mean, I guess it's been thought of a lot, not really overrated..
Oops! I Did It Again
I was thinking ... something about like what I want to do .. Argh! I'm tired.. Ah, yes, I think that I want to be involved in other parts of the U.S., you know culturally, not in a European way.
Crossing Ginny's Eyes
I was thinking, er, the question was what would be the better option only living in Florida|California (where I've never been) only for a significant time?
Flipping [the] Pain
I sang "Macavity" from Cats, about 2 ***y cats, but then I did a circus-y 1 involving more moves with a boy and girl cat, and it seemed that Ellen DeGeneres from the New Orleans area would like the 1st song in the style of the circus 1, but I decided that coming from the opposite area I like to sorta flip around pain for fun.. feeling a greasy head.
Disapproving Morals
Does Ellen DeGeneres disapprove of all the morals of like women of 1950 or maybe some a bit before?
Shopping
I want to go back and get a thin, hotter pink sweater size S @ GAP, tried from XL, it's rather long, advertised on a dress.
Mall
I got a monkey for $5 @ Hallmark with purple. With my minkey dinkey smelly thing that's supposed to clip from Bath & Body Works.
Friday, February 8, 2013
After Class
The teacher asked me if I was gonna kill anyone. She also asked me about theater, said it was my 2nd option, I did music and maybe singing major.
Got Mad in Class, Again..
So, I kicked my stuff around and made some rustle between breaking thinking of how none of the protocols in Orlando matter because I know I'm from Florida, I left, for New Orleans, and I came back.
transportation
The center isn't answering yet, hope they didn't take off, need to book in advance? Also, the school site isn't working, so I had to check something to see next week, a girl in Voice..
In Class
The teacher was gonna feel my back for a long time for Voice for the Actor, but she said you wanna do me and I jumped up and did it.. Well, she seemed to have a big hollow sound through her back, and her throat is also her core|key.
me @ class - dance - 1½ min
YouTube
Some of it didn't record, neither did my psyc reading, with a blonde lady in her 50s or something.
Some of it didn't record, neither did my psyc reading, with a blonde lady in her 50s or something.
THIS IS SO FUNNY
The Atlantian jazz musicians seemed to say, "But I did it, and when I did it, I did it deceased in the Lord!"
Jea lou sy ... That Poi i i i i sion ous Pa ssion
I see that people wrecked apart what is supposed to be Florida, jealous. I didn't do that to Ohio from New Orleans??
Thursday, February 7, 2013
How Long I Slept
It was about midnight to 4:30 A.M., I thought, but now I see it's 6:00 A.M. Maybe, I woke up at a different time, must have been like 5:30 A.M.
Dream
I remember for a long time, 1st Ginny Kopf said suggested she was having a baby and it was because of a sequence of events of something I did annoying, or wrong. We were like on a running belt. I wasn't mad, in particular, but I was very generally just upset at the turn of events. I probably was being quite bad. I think she had me hit my forehead, where I really hit it doing a sumersault. I came to but was a bit knocked out in my head, so she picked me up, felt much older and bigger than me. It felt really good, just realized, and I was pretty comfortable. It was a long time. She noticed I had my legs folded up with pressure around her body in the air, so it was right when I put them down. So, she was making me feel good. I don't remember all the dynamics, but you can imagine.
After that, I was in my grandma's house with my older aunt and little brother. We watched a movie I forget or watched something short else before that wasn't exactly a public show. I was recording my brother and mainly me watching. I dug in my backpack and realized I could charge the camera on the computer in the morning, like when my brother was on it. I went to the bathroom, like there were 3 bathrooms in a made-up maze. I went, but I realized 2 red lights outside might be a wolf, last night heard a noise, not sure what it was, maybe a click and hiss, and saw like a light twice coming up from a level of where my head was. It was like green. There is a little green blinking light in that area. So, I went out of the bathroom, people glad there would be my poo, pee, and toilet paper in it to prove I got out, and I never saw the wolf come but I made it inside, feeling I guess a bit paralyzed and irritated, you know sick like I am now. So, I got in and went to the bathroom somewhere else, was in line, but I found I was gonna play an oboe. I played pressing the keys, noticed my ring finger was up. I think it was Ginny teaching, but I came up and realized it was an old, fat man. I was doing "I Love the Mountains." I never played it. The person, obviously, well on the way I was anticipating that I was new, saw a girl with like a small, plastic bassoon, which is like a clarinet|oboe shaped like a horn, and it turned out I was "talented," or I could feel music. They were just a ring master and enjoying the beat, but it came out like it was a program, like a little blast or sorta band of noise, you know? I think I learned that in choir and liked the music I heard when I was little and as a baby watched MTV and my naked dad.
So, Ginny was looking down at me, and I had to stay with her because my head hurt. I woke up feeling good, with a blanket against my butt and back. I tried to put on my slipper standing on 1 foot but was dizzy and couldn't do it. I have fluffy boot slippers. I'm still dizzy and holding myself in place.
After that, I was in my grandma's house with my older aunt and little brother. We watched a movie I forget or watched something short else before that wasn't exactly a public show. I was recording my brother and mainly me watching. I dug in my backpack and realized I could charge the camera on the computer in the morning, like when my brother was on it. I went to the bathroom, like there were 3 bathrooms in a made-up maze. I went, but I realized 2 red lights outside might be a wolf, last night heard a noise, not sure what it was, maybe a click and hiss, and saw like a light twice coming up from a level of where my head was. It was like green. There is a little green blinking light in that area. So, I went out of the bathroom, people glad there would be my poo, pee, and toilet paper in it to prove I got out, and I never saw the wolf come but I made it inside, feeling I guess a bit paralyzed and irritated, you know sick like I am now. So, I got in and went to the bathroom somewhere else, was in line, but I found I was gonna play an oboe. I played pressing the keys, noticed my ring finger was up. I think it was Ginny teaching, but I came up and realized it was an old, fat man. I was doing "I Love the Mountains." I never played it. The person, obviously, well on the way I was anticipating that I was new, saw a girl with like a small, plastic bassoon, which is like a clarinet|oboe shaped like a horn, and it turned out I was "talented," or I could feel music. They were just a ring master and enjoying the beat, but it came out like it was a program, like a little blast or sorta band of noise, you know? I think I learned that in choir and liked the music I heard when I was little and as a baby watched MTV and my naked dad.
So, Ginny was looking down at me, and I had to stay with her because my head hurt. I woke up feeling good, with a blanket against my butt and back. I tried to put on my slipper standing on 1 foot but was dizzy and couldn't do it. I have fluffy boot slippers. I'm still dizzy and holding myself in place.
Wednesday, February 6, 2013
It chan-ges ... chan-ges ....
I don't really care if you think my mom being from out of the U.S. changes it.
Farming Family
Ellen DeGeneres, I know you meditate in your subconscious on how my dad is from a f'rm family. So, you just want to see people fight from all other areas. You know, I went up north in the winter once when I was older, and it was pretty cool. I went up there 1 winter before, 1 fall before. I was up there again from fall to early winter.
People Born Later
So, people born later have fun and are lose, but they just play around and want to show off to older kids, like 5 years older..Ir. At least, I am mature, but I'm wondering about kids with older parents. It seems kinda nice to have a dad who's not too young, too, you know a good ball park age..
Tacky
So, why ... I forget ... about people from Florida, why do people who move here have to do tacky things? Why would you sit here and dissect dirt in the atmosphere?
Resting
Guess I'll be going in a bit to see the therapist, might go to the store today to get a new cell phone. :| So, I am coming home though at like 7 P.M., with a Lynx van. I gotta go to sleep early, leaving at 9, so gotta pack a lunch tonight maybe, wake up and get ready at 8? Maybe 7? See when I wake up, set my alarm for maybe 7:30?
Something Funny
Why does Nell Burton seem to be made of like something sorta outlined in like sticky white plastic filled with white fluffy stuff, like gauze or a diaper, because I heard that Tim Burton's parents are from Canada. :o
My teacher Ginny's dad is from Pittsburgh, and her mom is from California, and she is from the San Fransisco area, Santa Clara. :} Also, some cities are considered better than country areas, officially, and others not. The other sad fact is there's a big thing like of say northern Pennsylvania or the Amish if not, which came as a surprise. See, people think below Pennsylvania is Southern.. ? I guess Canada is European. I'm not sure what the funny thing is.. ? Tim Burton seems to have had good parents, but how do we know for sure? There's a big thing about the Baby Boomers being a problem, but Tim Burton is a Late Boomer. Late Bloomer is also a word. Sometimes, people with older parents are Late Bloomers. (That means they mature later..)
I don't see why California would be unfeeling and that Canada would be feeling.
My teacher Ginny's dad is from Pittsburgh, and her mom is from California, and she is from the San Fransisco area, Santa Clara. :} Also, some cities are considered better than country areas, officially, and others not. The other sad fact is there's a big thing like of say northern Pennsylvania or the Amish if not, which came as a surprise. See, people think below Pennsylvania is Southern.. ? I guess Canada is European. I'm not sure what the funny thing is.. ? Tim Burton seems to have had good parents, but how do we know for sure? There's a big thing about the Baby Boomers being a problem, but Tim Burton is a Late Boomer. Late Bloomer is also a word. Sometimes, people with older parents are Late Bloomers. (That means they mature later..)
I don't see why California would be unfeeling and that Canada would be feeling.
Someone to Look up To.. }:}
I wonder if Ellen DeGeneres is too old to have someone to look up to. I wonder how that goes. I just always felt like I was little but like not of the generation of people born in 1960.
Question
So, can people with older moms feel like they have a special mom born around 1960? What about other races, like saying that the problem is them and that they're special in a costly way?
Looking Wild
Why wouldn't you want to have a romantic look like you're in Africa and learning about the people but still keeping your fair features?
Agitation
So, in class, when we were lying down a long time, I spread my legs in agitation to the chairs.
Liking Where You're From
With Britney Spears, do you get like when you see the pictures of her laughing like she thinks she gets to do something because her culture sucks? It seems like it's because of her age. So sarcastic. I just don't care.
Class
After class, the teacher had a meeting, was supposed to talk to me..thought it meant something. In my hw, she told me to keep doing that, too. Had a meeting with a female. Got mad and ripped my paper because I kept asking her. I didn't get it, could have asked her another day, didn't think of it. She should have just left. I held the door open, and she didn't care, I think, but cared ABOUT THAT GIRL FROM CALIFORNIA because otherwise she would probably just be grumpy. What a useless- Well, she ripped my paper with her pen. She was trying to. She crossed it out again, too, a lot. She told me the wrong page or someone did. So, stay after and ask the teacher and I guess tell them if someone told you wrong.
Class, Yesterday
So, I walked across the room and lay on the couch a bit, walked up to the teacher and walked out. I saw a guy for the next class, told him not to go in, and he knew the class was guilty, unsure what was up. I had my heeled boots on. I don't have boots without heels. :| They don't sell many around.
Mardi Gras
Tomorrow, is Mardi Gras, from 11-2. I can't believe we have to practice for theater. I haven't had any time, and the practice didn't involve me much, 3 people. We're coming to school on Monday to practice, but I don't have class that day. I guess they just didn't want to come the day of, which is fine. So, yea, she suggested maybe we practiced a little script for 3 hours. I guess I am not that much into theater nor this script. I mean, practicing with 2 other amateurs..it just wasn't all that encouraging. They were afraid to have fun, just practicing being goody-goods.
hw
I have to remember a little paragraph for makeup by tomorrow, but that may be all my homework save a journal for Improv. I turned in a late set of journals compiled, doubled 1, but they weren't very long. My new 1s aren't about the class. I need to do some harder floor workouts.. forgot what else I was gonna say. Oh yea, not sure how to find them. Let's see, Feb. 6, gotta save money, might be able to use my EBT card at a gas station but no all.
Ate
Last night, I had leftover pizza and canned Chef Boyardee Macaroni & Cheese, maybe something else 1st I forget. Not sure what I will have now, have a therapist appointment, might get my new cell phone, still tired, have to reserve a van for tomorrow and reschedule an appointment for Monday.
Woke Up
There's a squealing noise in my room. I know lately I dropped my noisemaker. It disturbed me, too, though, and gave me a weird feeling.
Dream
I had a really good feeling, Ellen DeGeneres was in a dark room with a lot of space with stuff in it and I was on top of her, and it felt so full and strong, like she was a big wild cat I just saw, like she just had *** with it, you know was just on top of it. Sadly, I left.
Later, I met up with a boy from England and was putting my arms around him walking but not really feeling like I thought it would feel to be with him, you know how I felt seeing the pictures in a very strong but not like totally loaded feeling..
Later, I met up with a boy from England and was putting my arms around him walking but not really feeling like I thought it would feel to be with him, you know how I felt seeing the pictures in a very strong but not like totally loaded feeling..
Unacceptable
I will not accept your actions nor fantasies that me doing things out-of-the-ordinary entails me being punished.
Facebook Post
To: http://www.facebook.com/ginny.kopf
Hi, I wanted to talk to you, about class. ... I hope you had a good class today. I'll think about it in my blog, about how to have a better experience. I was just worried about it, nothing wrong with that, does show I'm interested in something others think is too late. Not sure exactly what my point was, though. I thought of what bothered me and got tired and forgot about it. I got a lot done talking about it, tonight, though. Well, hope we have a good class session Thursday. Not sure how to make it better. It's Mardi Gras at Valencia, so should make a difference. So, I blogger about the class today on my blog, which is my #1 thing in this existence other than maybe unorganized possibilities..who knows what that would mean..? So, I blogged about the class.. http://cab1986orlfl15.blogspot.com/2013/02/facebookpost20130206-1.html
Hi, I wanted to talk to you, about class. I got something to quell me and distract me from the kids in the Voice for the Actor class, guess that older guy started it, is younger than you just a little.. So, when the guy bothered me I just wouldn't have it, wanted to do something back but couldn't really get myself to shrug it off. People are just mean to me. They don't care what I say. I don't want to do this. I don't see them as native Floridians. If they are, they are just in the stuff. So many kids in the class were like hissing curse words. Did you tell them to do that, just for fun, because I mean I don't think I would do that, not sure why that would be okay. Guess it just came up, then? I have a right to take class from you at college. The problem was the students, not sure what it is. So, I did notice, maybe you did, that you were mad at me because I was upset. Seems like you want me to be a suck up. I don't mean anything bad using the term a "suck up," just a cute word. You're acting like since I am not submissive to the Floridian culture that maybe I have to assimilate to a proper way of living as a contemporary citizen, of the U.S. I was just worried about the way you seem to want us to be like goody-goods, or else the class would make me go out of control wondering if I'm Floridian. I'm mixed, but I actually grew up in Florida. I was wondering why you are uptight on Facebook because everyone online is not very giving online, and it is actually "the" opportunity, not something you can take for granted to save a spot for later? I was hoping your classes would be fun. 3( You seem to be ring leading your current students but I see you already appear to be old in some way. I'm not sure if I'm in the right place or if you're just a competitive person, maybe more important than most all the other teachers, at least in Florida. Like, you seem to want to know if I want something, felt that you just wanted something from me and then pretty much don't want to talk to me, like you want something but you don't talk. I don't know who I was to start off with, more was my mom's kid and had to live with my dad. My mom gives me what I want and is strict. I don't know what's wrong with my dad. I don't feel that European myself around him but at least have a connection. I do feel more physical. It's just that around my mom I look more European, at least before. In Florida, all people cared about was like how my life wasn't very physically pleasurable. After I came back from elsewhere, it became more in line with some focal idea. It's just that I don't really mold who I am in that way. I know the reason I look Jewish is because it's like a pull away from "being a gymnast." Anyway, it's late and I also want to do something else. I hope the pacifiers I got will keep me occupied in class, keep me from crying, which I am so not prone to ever do in a bad way anymore unless someone summoned it. I think I am just mad that people don't think I am a true Floridian when I've been here since birth. It's just because my dad is from Pennsylvania, but I think it's cool. I think they just want my parents for themselves, themselves. With you, I am concerned about your getting out, like your maybe hoping for the future while maybe people like me will move on. I will move on because I realize my goals and don't lackadaisically put them off, why would you think otherwise? I just feed myself and rest and then everyone comes to me for the ***. I never did anything wrong, so it's a lie to think not.. :V I feel controlled by Italians born in the mid|late 70s. People are just questioning what I've done and changing my future because of Tim Burton, just admit it. You're just saying I can't be cool because my dad is from Pennsylvania and not like Florida nor L.A. nor somewhere else in California.. I will not listen to rules from Pennsylvania of fake things. I don't even know why this is. I can see if it's for fun, but it seems like it's because of something I did wrong. If I have a tight situation, you can't make it all the tighter like that's when that is. I thought you were down-to-earth and Western, why I took your class, plus you also seemed like a beckoning figure, all the same. Guess you're also ½ Pennsylvanian. I think Pennsylvania is now just priced for the separate Amish whatever, perhaps where my relatives live now, and maybe for the prestige of your city, of which I know not. However, my relatives aren't all European ethnically. It is my understanding most people aren't, so then it doesn't matter. People are a bit stand-offish to me from having an all Chinese mom. The thing is my dad is not my mom, and most people are not mothered by their dads. 1st, my egg is from my mom, and I was pregnated in her. Then, I knew she was my mom! Then, I stayed with her.. So, I'm loading footage of me talking tonight. That'll make me feel better. You know, you know it's wrong to say you have to give up something to make an accurate statement. Pretty much everyone just kinda keeps going doing that, as though it's their relief. Well, fine, let it out. Ah, guess I'll be taking my leave, for now, write an intro to this. You seem awfully bored by my company but maybe interested. I am concerned about people joking about you. I guess I just don't find it cool, just them saying they're jealous and mad they aren't as good and don't feel like moving. I know that they like to have fun with me. It's just that they think ooh maybe I'm Christina. Haha, dunno.
Hi, I wanted to talk to you, about class. ... I hope you had a good class today. I'll think about it in my blog, about how to have a better experience. I was just worried about it, nothing wrong with that, does show I'm interested in something others think is too late. Not sure exactly what my point was, though. I thought of what bothered me and got tired and forgot about it. I got a lot done talking about it, tonight, though. Well, hope we have a good class session Thursday. Not sure how to make it better. It's Mardi Gras at Valencia, so should make a difference. So, I blogger about the class today on my blog, which is my #1 thing in this existence other than maybe unorganized possibilities..who knows what that would mean..? So, I blogged about the class.. http://cab1986orlfl15.blogspot.com/2013/02/facebookpost20130206-1.html
Hi, I wanted to talk to you, about class. I got something to quell me and distract me from the kids in the Voice for the Actor class, guess that older guy started it, is younger than you just a little.. So, when the guy bothered me I just wouldn't have it, wanted to do something back but couldn't really get myself to shrug it off. People are just mean to me. They don't care what I say. I don't want to do this. I don't see them as native Floridians. If they are, they are just in the stuff. So many kids in the class were like hissing curse words. Did you tell them to do that, just for fun, because I mean I don't think I would do that, not sure why that would be okay. Guess it just came up, then? I have a right to take class from you at college. The problem was the students, not sure what it is. So, I did notice, maybe you did, that you were mad at me because I was upset. Seems like you want me to be a suck up. I don't mean anything bad using the term a "suck up," just a cute word. You're acting like since I am not submissive to the Floridian culture that maybe I have to assimilate to a proper way of living as a contemporary citizen, of the U.S. I was just worried about the way you seem to want us to be like goody-goods, or else the class would make me go out of control wondering if I'm Floridian. I'm mixed, but I actually grew up in Florida. I was wondering why you are uptight on Facebook because everyone online is not very giving online, and it is actually "the" opportunity, not something you can take for granted to save a spot for later? I was hoping your classes would be fun. 3( You seem to be ring leading your current students but I see you already appear to be old in some way. I'm not sure if I'm in the right place or if you're just a competitive person, maybe more important than most all the other teachers, at least in Florida. Like, you seem to want to know if I want something, felt that you just wanted something from me and then pretty much don't want to talk to me, like you want something but you don't talk. I don't know who I was to start off with, more was my mom's kid and had to live with my dad. My mom gives me what I want and is strict. I don't know what's wrong with my dad. I don't feel that European myself around him but at least have a connection. I do feel more physical. It's just that around my mom I look more European, at least before. In Florida, all people cared about was like how my life wasn't very physically pleasurable. After I came back from elsewhere, it became more in line with some focal idea. It's just that I don't really mold who I am in that way. I know the reason I look Jewish is because it's like a pull away from "being a gymnast." Anyway, it's late and I also want to do something else. I hope the pacifiers I got will keep me occupied in class, keep me from crying, which I am so not prone to ever do in a bad way anymore unless someone summoned it. I think I am just mad that people don't think I am a true Floridian when I've been here since birth. It's just because my dad is from Pennsylvania, but I think it's cool. I think they just want my parents for themselves, themselves. With you, I am concerned about your getting out, like your maybe hoping for the future while maybe people like me will move on. I will move on because I realize my goals and don't lackadaisically put them off, why would you think otherwise? I just feed myself and rest and then everyone comes to me for the ***. I never did anything wrong, so it's a lie to think not.. :V I feel controlled by Italians born in the mid|late 70s. People are just questioning what I've done and changing my future because of Tim Burton, just admit it. You're just saying I can't be cool because my dad is from Pennsylvania and not like Florida nor L.A. nor somewhere else in California.. I will not listen to rules from Pennsylvania of fake things. I don't even know why this is. I can see if it's for fun, but it seems like it's because of something I did wrong. If I have a tight situation, you can't make it all the tighter like that's when that is. I thought you were down-to-earth and Western, why I took your class, plus you also seemed like a beckoning figure, all the same. Guess you're also ½ Pennsylvanian. I think Pennsylvania is now just priced for the separate Amish whatever, perhaps where my relatives live now, and maybe for the prestige of your city, of which I know not. However, my relatives aren't all European ethnically. It is my understanding most people aren't, so then it doesn't matter. People are a bit stand-offish to me from having an all Chinese mom. The thing is my dad is not my mom, and most people are not mothered by their dads. 1st, my egg is from my mom, and I was pregnated in her. Then, I knew she was my mom! Then, I stayed with her.. So, I'm loading footage of me talking tonight. That'll make me feel better. You know, you know it's wrong to say you have to give up something to make an accurate statement. Pretty much everyone just kinda keeps going doing that, as though it's their relief. Well, fine, let it out. Ah, guess I'll be taking my leave, for now, write an intro to this. You seem awfully bored by my company but maybe interested. I am concerned about people joking about you. I guess I just don't find it cool, just them saying they're jealous and mad they aren't as good and don't feel like moving. I know that they like to have fun with me. It's just that they think ooh maybe I'm Christina. Haha, dunno.
Tuesday, February 5, 2013
Facebook Post & Like
I hope you find what you're looking for. I think that I'd have to say my initial vision that I can right now conceive is that that is something like me. It's best to get someone intellectually in the mood, thinking the right stuff, who has a background that says yes I'm ready for this now ya'll. I don't think you'll necessarily be able to find like someone of a set image to gawk over, not sure why that would suddenly touch you. Hey I'm just trying to get across a message to see what you're really saying because I don't really get it now nor am sure if I ever would get that. Hey, know anyone from Florida, I mean with like parents from Florida? I don't. I think I've met Californians. I imagine and know my parents have. They sound like hysterical, kind people my mom can connect with. I have a problem with people from the city in Pennsylvania but changed my mind to say okay Pittsburgh might be okay, the biggest city, doesn't have too funny a name, must be the spot. I mean, I really like people from places like New Jersey, Ohio, .. Wisconsin!. I think like San Fransisco. I guess San Diego seems like a good place. Reminds me of places like Chicago. You already knew that in that way? I think the big thing is people with a twang. I'm more about people who feed off of like George Bush. I do believe that Pennsylvania is way down south, and Pittsburgh is like the New Orleans area. New York is the new Pennsylvania. Pennsylvania is indeed a good place for nature but might not have as many mountains. I mean yea, but it's not really as cold, I don't know much else but that like Virginia has greener, nicer mountains. Well, anyway, that's pretty interesting.. Why not get Tim Burton? He's currently that way, for some reason. Maybe, he just wants something to do. He never really seems to be all that dazzling. Hey, why is Tim Burton not on the same track? He's just there to say he's racist to people like me. Why is my life so hard and such a failure? People are so suggestive to me, not sure why they aren't interested. Anyway, hope this was not too long. I liked your writing and what you said. xp I was just interested and wanted to talk with you and Ginny. =}
Something Funny
So, people are joking about a city I used to live in called
Altamonte Springs. Someone here, an
adult, seemed to think, “Oh, I don’t know, did you see me on the trampoline?” 3D
Problem
Ellen DeGeneres won’t leave me alone. Her and Tim Burton think they can do
something really perverted. Admit they
have a problem. They aren’t white.
Nite
I'm pretty loaded, lunky, was tired at the bus-! I have 3-4 hours to sleep. xp I'll be awake. Maybe wrong choice of dress but still. Not sure how it'll go. Already have nail polish on, could at least wear the blazer. It's cold out.
Ate
I had more than ½ of a DiGiorno Rising Crust pizza, pepperoni, and vanilla cake and Breyer's ice cream, nilla. My lunch is all ready, whoops gotta get the lunchbag outta the washer..k
Problems
Not sure what exactly is bugging me, but I may have went to school early and don't have an ironing board so may ask my dad to buy 1. It's locked in my parents's room, tonight. The problem is it might have been done on purpose. So, at 8, when my parents are both gone, probably, I rush and get out the ironing board and ready to board by 9.. Hm, my parents were good, but I think I felt pressure from the outside world for them being good because other people were part Italian and probably other minor European ethnicities. I feel totally rejected, and I mean I can't just like do away with myself. Also, I hit my right side, like a sack, the female thing. I was aware and careful. Also, what if I wanted to take the bus, early! 0:, I probably wouldn't.. Wait, why do you think it's so funny I said, that idea? I don't care about weird families, I mean I care, but I mean it's their predicament. We don't all suffer, I just realized. I've never met any insane adults, but I imagine they wind up with perverted sons, etc.
What I'm Doing
Nails drying, guess I'll watch "The Ellen DeGeneres Show" and prepare food for tomorrow, maybe rehearse some and go nite nite, wake up by 7 A.M., do my hair, makeup ... iron tonight ... need to plan my bottom for my dress and blazer.
Monday, February 4, 2013
What I'm Doing
Just finished my shower-bath, see it's late. Doing my nails, again.. Cut my bangs. Guess I have to pack and do my lunch, might go to bed and plan to wake up early, but my parents will be in the kitchen so maybe not. :/
What do you think?
So, what do you think about Ellen DeGeneres? She seems to be prejudiced about kids being cool. Like, that's been like her sorta game. She has lots of games like that. She seems kinda mad about me just because of the n word thing, and my life's been tested because I got tired of school and other kids didn't.
Carousel of Progress
Ellen DeGeneres, stop pretending to send me stupid messages. I deserve to get what I want. What is wrong with her? Stop wasting my time, you baboon, you useless gamer. You have no sense of humor and you just hurt people. You're not allowed to stop the progress I expect.
Roller Coaster
Why are people from California and Florida like me all acting like life goes on a roller coaster? Maybe, go move somewhere else. That's just something you do for fun, not a way to hurt people! WHAT THE FUCK IS YOUR PROBLEM?
chickins
WHAT IS THIS? STOP ATTACKING ME, ELLEN DEGENERES AND ORLA FALLON. Stop being dummies and tell me what ya'll are up to. You can't control me because of the mistakes that others have made. I think I am fine, finer than you.
You're just chickins.
You're just chickins.
Facebook Post
Oh, I wish I would have called..I forgot what I was going to say- Anyway..Forgot again. Well, with me, she made a connection. I know at 1 point that I thought Anastasia was tacky like a New Yo'ker I guess from somewhere other than SW NY. :/ Anyway. ;D I don't think Amy likes either of us because my dad is from Pennsylvania and not like a major area like Pittsburgh or Allentown.. I think that people are always really sensitive to people who started life in a major area of Florida, so I've always not really explored that since there's nothing in it for me without parents from Florida and with my dad not having any modern culture, so me not having any foot in the culture, though my mom isn't even American. She got her citizenship when I was a kid. It was so funny..ha hahah something you'd have liked to have influenced and I wished I would be esteemed in. I wasn't really bothered, as you can see. Amy is a nice girl, different. Perhaps, people born around 1990 are a bit unattractive, I mean in generality, not to point fingers, must have been a cuter kid than me, I mean. :} She's not exactly intellectual, so I don't think I can connect to her. She sees me as a physically fit person who's awake to the culture. I think she was interested in me, but we were leaving anyway. She didn't really make a move. xp They were connecting better than me, unfortunately, was kinda thinking that Amy would connect with me, you know? Not sure why I got along so well with Anastasia. It was because I think people from NYC are more out in the public and for some reason I can see certain people from the East I know as white? So, Anastasia, was like really mad at Amy and like attacking her the whole time, and Amy pretty much just stood there and was feeling sorry for herself.. They were so close up and connected. I have no idea why Amy cared because I would just probably not have that happen. Ah! :/ Anastasia, yes, she just didn't want Amy to act like she was black. I don't know why she decided to make a scene of it. So, that was why she was acting like that. She shouldn't have attacked. I guess it startled Anastasia, like for fun. I know people from NYC do that stuff.. :/ My life just because more action-packed or high-pitched today. =^ I dunno, I was attacked by Tim Burton all the time and people he knows sexually, not that you just you, anyway well what happened was he is picky about like me sculpting every move like I'm a robot and not very mobile, and that's like all he ever thinks about. The sad fact is I've spent lots of my life "guiltily" doing that and now I'm kinda more prone to my mom's side, which is the natural side, right? My biggest problem I told the therapist (from Miami) and police. I walked around Orlando since like 2005 and I would just feel jolts of torture in public and that's why I just stayed home for like 7 years. So, I mentioned that because I can't like make myself think positive all the time and I still expect to get some attention? My friends stopped talking to me. My ideas are always flipping, I can't just robotically slice myself into the truth. It seems like it would hurt. :I Soo..it might be an issue the kinds of students that you get, not sure why they are in college? I mean, good they want to take your class. Lots of people would, you know. I have no idea how they would care. We just have like a mental block. I'm genuinely interested in everyone, in any culture in the U.S., not 1 for Europe and just the beach. :I Okay, thanks for your concern. I hope that you become more attentive to your students's psychiatric needs and qualms. :I I just was really concerned, not sure who else to tell, maybe will talk to her other teacher but maybe not since I'm not in that class and can't monitor what she would do. Thankss. Oh, yes, her mood switched and she turned against us like she was cool and it was okay since you know she admits that, but I think she is just well-intended. I sorta escaped the social scene when I left Florida, so I haven't really gotten into that. Again, yes, thanks, was just worried, can print it out for my rehearsal journal. I was just worried Amy got hurt, not worried about the New Yo'ker.. Thanks. =}
Facebook Post
from before
Hey,
Ginny, we just practiced. I think that the girl from NYC, who is
African-American, was really upset the whole time for some reason
wanting the girl with the curly very fair hair from California (English)
to connect with her, not as separate,
so I was worried about her. I found she is a singer and am going to her
performance class next week. Maybe, you should get to know this
person.. http://cab1986orlfl15.blogspot.com/2013/02/practice.html
Sorry, I hope I’m not bothering, just thought I was supposed to let you
know, somehow, on your site. Don’t want to take up too much, just
thought it was significant, sure you think so, too..
Christina AJ Barrett: Practice
cab1986orlfl15.blogspot.com
Back
Gonna take a shower-bath, blog, possibly sing, and go to bed! Leave early tomorrow. Guess I get my cell phone Wednesday after the therapist appointment? Or Friday. :{
Was full from a full wrap..went to the bathroom a lot. Missed the bus and had to pull the chord without knowing what I was doing but succeeded.
Was full from a full wrap..went to the bathroom a lot. Missed the bus and had to pull the chord without knowing what I was doing but succeeded.
Facebook Post
It also shows a picture of the vase with flowers.
It won’t
copy now, guess I’ll copy it later..
Practice
So, the black girl from NYC when she was 13, 10 years ago,
pretty much didn’t want the white blonde with very fair, curly hair, with an
English origin family, to like not connect with her because of race. Then, the Cali girl treated us like we weren’t
from Florida nor Cali. I don’t have some
stupid culture test. Anyway, so, you
black girl were like yelling in her face the entire script! Too bad she has no one to turn to. :’{ I’m
going to her voice performance class next week I think. Help!
:0
Bye 4 Now
So, I'll meet the girls, and then I'll go to the library to print out a map, probably post here, who knows what. Want to get a new cell phone tonight.
How Things Are Swingin
I had to recall, again. I got the bus route down, no cell, could ask my parents to schedule a trip but don't think they have time, sounds like the bus comes on the hour by the hour.
The Plan -:{
calling again
might walk to the bus, but I don't have a cell phone so not sure if I should or not, could ask the bus driver for help, know the area
so, it'll take 3 hours?
it keeps saying 10 calls ahead - this is so worthless, I have to reserve 2 hours in advance and get there by 2 so leave by 12:30 P.M., so a little more than an hour, 9 calls ahead
might walk to the bus, but I don't have a cell phone so not sure if I should or not, could ask the bus driver for help, know the area
so, it'll take 3 hours?
it keeps saying 10 calls ahead - this is so worthless, I have to reserve 2 hours in advance and get there by 2 so leave by 12:30 P.M., so a little more than an hour, 9 calls ahead
Stop
They stopped telling me how many people are ahead. Might call back. Checking bus service. Will probably have to leave soon. }=
The Reason ... I Wake up Every Day
The reason I didn't like my cousin was because she got all the attention and acted like she was white and I wasn't, that she was whiter and I wasn't that white.
Waiting and Hoping for * to Appear
I'm waiting for the pick-up line '8|.
14 calls ahead for like 5 minutes
10 calls ahead for like 3-4 minutes
9 calls ahead *rattle*
2 hours in advance
14 calls ahead for like 5 minutes
10 calls ahead for like 3-4 minutes
9 calls ahead *rattle*
2 hours in advance
Ate
2 cracker sticks with dip
crackers with spread (Cream Cheese & Chives)
leftover hot dog - Oscar Meyer Weiner bun length my dad got beef franks with wheat bun and Heinz ketchup, like ¾+ hot dog
Chef Boyardee canned macaroni & cheese
1¼ wheat bagels with crunchy Peter Pan peanut butter and grape jelly with no fruit
crackers with spread (Cream Cheese & Chives)
leftover hot dog - Oscar Meyer Weiner bun length my dad got beef franks with wheat bun and Heinz ketchup, like ¾+ hot dog
Chef Boyardee canned macaroni & cheese
1¼ wheat bagels with crunchy Peter Pan peanut butter and grape jelly with no fruit
Wonder Wonder Wonder
So, my dad won't take me to school in the morning? My mom "won't?" I
just didn't think to call because I was so tired. I hope the bus
works. I did my notes and didn't get an e-mail, so, it doesn't really
matter. If I did get an e-mail, I don't know what I'd say, ask for a
lift? I think I can do the bus and hope I can do it in the future. It
is a nice bus on the outside, and I mean I just feel funny as a
disability person. I just want to get out of this. I feel bad about
the financial aid.
Oh be kind to your fine feathered friends
Why would Ellen DeGeneres think I am not like my mom in a good way? Just get the point. What the fuck do you want?
Sicko
That's so sick that someone like Ellen DeGeneres would follow Tim Burton and think I need extra rules when people have been like killing me saying I'm too good and not like approaching me, while I sit there and think I'm cutesy and gleaming alone, not unattractive, not inhuman, not unintelligent. Isn't this an old issue?
Just what makes that little old ant...
My mom thinks the disability etc. or whatever services will still be open now, demanding here in Orlando, though I think not. Who knows if they have something on the way, though, unsure of this, really, though I don't really think so.
WAH
My parents can't take me to school to practice, so I have to go by bus. I've never been on the buses here. My lunch is packed, probably will get a diet shake. Might take 1½-2 hours. Probably 2 or 3 stops.
Nanny ♫
Why does my mom act like I did things I didn't do? People just act like I'm not white. That's kinda sick. It just seems like she's not European. Why is she telling me all these sick ways I'm like my dad or like my dad isn't strong or he's too fat? I did gymnastics and I wasn't lazy. My dad is a good guy and did some neat stuff, photography and rhythm guitar?? What's so funny about rhythm guitar?? What does that mean about photography? She acts like I react the wrong way, but that doesn't mean I'm bad. It just feels like I belong in a Penn state asylum for not seeming detailed and alive. I talked to my grandma, and my face was not as detailed after I got contacts. Ellen DeGeneres acted nasty about me thinking it was cool I posted something of this nature online because she's not from a farm family partly, maybe. She thought she'd get away with it and will deny this fact. I am not sure what really happened, for sure, though.. I don't need someone with a problem to monitor me, like my friend from Saint Augustine. She's a brat and bully. What's so good about her? She wastes my time when I see her and doesn't comment. She shoved me off on Facebook like I was a loser. She made a racistly influenced remark on MySpace.
HUN GRY
HUN GRY
Pulling @
Why is everyone being mean to Frankie but acting like he's overly sensitive? I mean what I say. They're being mean and making it hard for everyone else. Órla Karron Fallon is the major public force in the universe, an Irish gal with a (Norman) French last name, real French, from Normandy. We had to check her Twitter and Facebook. Also, things seem to have come up, at the time, it so happened. Before, she was pregnant, not sure how much of that quality time had elapsed. I know I started watching "The Ellen DeGeneres Show" and probably had to let out some weird ideas and tried to retreat.
Contagious
So, watching "The Ellen DeGeneres Show," I was thinking of, "Grandma got run over by a reindeer." Well, all the white people in the U.S. have ancestors from snowy climates. It just was wrong that the humor of it was twisted to me. I think it's not supposed to be that way. I mean, if it were, okay, but I think it was just a mistake. Why am I uptight that I might forget more about important things I haven't written down I've imagined? I mean, I might, but it's not "because Mrs. Ellen DeGeneres says so." How corny, ha haha ha ha. 3D She is shaped like a block of ice.
Acting I
You had your chance to talk last night. I begged you to come upstairs with me. I was looking for romance and instead I got a petrified woman standing in my doorway. I never want to hear the sound of your voice again, do you understand?
*suddenly sees petrified woman*
*outbreaks at "voice"*
There's a key to the back door. Stick to the hallway and your room and you won't get hurt.
*talks like she's a dog or visitor, like a ghost idea*
*like Beauty & the Beast*
Not in my apartment. I don't want to see you. Cover the mirrors when you walk through the house. And I'm sick and tired of smelling your cooking. I've had it up to here with your polyunsaturated oils. Now get that spaghetti off of my table.
*toilet room in dream*
*mirrors like jewelry revealing explicit material*
*softens at cooking and polyunsaturated oils*
*spaghetti like @ Disney that is gone!*
What the hell's so funny about it?
(pasta hurled)
Now it's garbage!!
I like it.
*crossly, contradicting*
You touch one strand of that linguini and I'll break every sinus in your head.
*"insane," manic*
I'll tell you exactly what it is. It's the cooking, the cleaning and the crying. It's the moose calls that open your ears at two o'clock in the morning. I can't take it anymore, Florence, I'm cracking up. Everything you do irritates me. And when you're not here, the things I know you're going to do when you come in irritate me ... You leave me little notes on my pillow. "We're all out of corn flakes. F.U." ... It took me three hours to figure out that F.U. was Florence Unger ... It's no one's fault, Florence. We're just a rotten pair.
*raises eyebrow @ F.U.*
*ecstatic @ 3 hours of blank*
That's just the frame. The picture I haven't even painted yet ... Every night in my diary I write down the things you did that day that aggravate me ... This is June and so far I filled up till January ... And I haven't even put down the Gaspacho Brothers yet.
*into space*
*like Anne Frank*
What sex life? I can't even have dirty dreams. You come in and clean them up.
*earnest, no sex life!*
Don't point that finger at me unless you intend to use it.
*violent, eyes bulging*
What's this? A display of temper? I haven't seen you really angry since the day I dropped my eyelashes in your pancake batter.
*thinking @ the past, crossly*
I'm trembling all over. Look how I'm trembling all over.
*like My Fair Lady, sits down in chair, "without you--*
... If I've just been told off, I think I may have missed it.
*insane*
Good.
I see.
Is that so?
Is that it?
What is that, a Cole Porter song?
*staring at her like she's weird, in lala land*
Good. Because now I'm going to tell -you- off ... For eight months, I've lived all alone in this apartment. I thought I was miserable. I thought I was lonely. I took you in here because I thought we could help each other ... And after three weeks of close, personal contact, I have hives, shingles and the heartbreak of psoriasis ... I am growing old at twice the speed of sound ... I have seven new liver spots on my hand that look like the Big Dipper ... I can't take any more, Florence ... Do me a favor and move into a kitchen. Live with your pots, your pans, your ladle and your meat thermometer ... I'm going inside to lie down now ... My teeth are coming lose and I'm afraid if I drop them in here, you'll get out your vacuum cleaner again.
*as if no one was even listening!..*
In the kitchen! I want to get your head in the oven and cook it like a capon.
*not feeling well..*
It's no use running, Florence. There's only six rooms and I know all the shortcuts.
*threateningly*
*suddenly sees petrified woman*
*outbreaks at "voice"*
There's a key to the back door. Stick to the hallway and your room and you won't get hurt.
*talks like she's a dog or visitor, like a ghost idea*
*like Beauty & the Beast*
Not in my apartment. I don't want to see you. Cover the mirrors when you walk through the house. And I'm sick and tired of smelling your cooking. I've had it up to here with your polyunsaturated oils. Now get that spaghetti off of my table.
*toilet room in dream*
*mirrors like jewelry revealing explicit material*
*softens at cooking and polyunsaturated oils*
*spaghetti like @ Disney that is gone!*
What the hell's so funny about it?
(pasta hurled)
Now it's garbage!!
I like it.
*crossly, contradicting*
You touch one strand of that linguini and I'll break every sinus in your head.
*"insane," manic*
I'll tell you exactly what it is. It's the cooking, the cleaning and the crying. It's the moose calls that open your ears at two o'clock in the morning. I can't take it anymore, Florence, I'm cracking up. Everything you do irritates me. And when you're not here, the things I know you're going to do when you come in irritate me ... You leave me little notes on my pillow. "We're all out of corn flakes. F.U." ... It took me three hours to figure out that F.U. was Florence Unger ... It's no one's fault, Florence. We're just a rotten pair.
*raises eyebrow @ F.U.*
*ecstatic @ 3 hours of blank*
That's just the frame. The picture I haven't even painted yet ... Every night in my diary I write down the things you did that day that aggravate me ... This is June and so far I filled up till January ... And I haven't even put down the Gaspacho Brothers yet.
*into space*
*like Anne Frank*
What sex life? I can't even have dirty dreams. You come in and clean them up.
*earnest, no sex life!*
Don't point that finger at me unless you intend to use it.
*violent, eyes bulging*
What's this? A display of temper? I haven't seen you really angry since the day I dropped my eyelashes in your pancake batter.
*thinking @ the past, crossly*
I'm trembling all over. Look how I'm trembling all over.
*like My Fair Lady, sits down in chair, "without you--*
... If I've just been told off, I think I may have missed it.
*insane*
Good.
I see.
Is that so?
Is that it?
What is that, a Cole Porter song?
*staring at her like she's weird, in lala land*
Good. Because now I'm going to tell -you- off ... For eight months, I've lived all alone in this apartment. I thought I was miserable. I thought I was lonely. I took you in here because I thought we could help each other ... And after three weeks of close, personal contact, I have hives, shingles and the heartbreak of psoriasis ... I am growing old at twice the speed of sound ... I have seven new liver spots on my hand that look like the Big Dipper ... I can't take any more, Florence ... Do me a favor and move into a kitchen. Live with your pots, your pans, your ladle and your meat thermometer ... I'm going inside to lie down now ... My teeth are coming lose and I'm afraid if I drop them in here, you'll get out your vacuum cleaner again.
*as if no one was even listening!..*
In the kitchen! I want to get your head in the oven and cook it like a capon.
*not feeling well..*
It's no use running, Florence. There's only six rooms and I know all the shortcuts.
*threateningly*
What's Down
So, my dad got me 2 like medium-ish trash cans, which remind me of Africa! dark brown.
Gotta go prepare lunch - sausage, if we got fish ... peel cucumber, wash lettuce, pack the brown stuff, hope my credit card will get me my diet choco smoothie. Oh yes, see if we have chicken or the honey ham, with the ranch, cheese whatever we got, lettuce or greens, on a wheat wrap my dad got. Not even sure how I am getting to school. Maybe, I can listen to music, dunno.. don't really feel like doing this, my dad thinks my EBT card will work elsewhere. 4:52 A.M. I better get to packin'. :0
Gotta go prepare lunch - sausage, if we got fish ... peel cucumber, wash lettuce, pack the brown stuff, hope my credit card will get me my diet choco smoothie. Oh yes, see if we have chicken or the honey ham, with the ranch, cheese whatever we got, lettuce or greens, on a wheat wrap my dad got. Not even sure how I am getting to school. Maybe, I can listen to music, dunno.. don't really feel like doing this, my dad thinks my EBT card will work elsewhere. 4:52 A.M. I better get to packin'. :0
A Nice, Artistic Girl-
It is hard to say that I am meaner than my mom. I only get upset if something happens to do with my little brother.
She is ***y? What does that say about me? My dad isn't un***y compared to other dudes. I don't know any really ***y guys. Maybe, I'm gay. Don't I have a choice to try to be ***y? Am I just genetic shit? I don't believe I would ever be like my dad in a way I don't want to be, though I find myself looking like my mom in weird ways. You think maybe it's a psychiatric problem? Maybe, my mom is just a really good person. Well, I know this guy in England with a nice dad and a ***y mom. His dad is a classical composer but supposedly died when we met. }3 He was sick. I guess my dad scraped for what he could muster and er I am an avid classical artist, as well..
She is ***y? What does that say about me? My dad isn't un***y compared to other dudes. I don't know any really ***y guys. Maybe, I'm gay. Don't I have a choice to try to be ***y? Am I just genetic shit? I don't believe I would ever be like my dad in a way I don't want to be, though I find myself looking like my mom in weird ways. You think maybe it's a psychiatric problem? Maybe, my mom is just a really good person. Well, I know this guy in England with a nice dad and a ***y mom. His dad is a classical composer but supposedly died when we met. }3 He was sick. I guess my dad scraped for what he could muster and er I am an avid classical artist, as well..
The Image @ the Ft.L Police
I saw a demented man with a wicked grin on Twitter. That used to be my aunt, but she moved to NW Florida, not on the beach, between Orlando and Gainesville.. She was so interested in me when e-mail came out and we became Barretts-in-New-Orleans..my friend's family did the same thing..I'm also up at Rochester where the other aunt from Fort Lauderdale lived a year, with her illegitimate daughter.
Crazy Intentions
Why is my dad like a Looney Tune or Mickey Mouse about not having fun meaning you're good? I don't kid around. I know the world is about having fun and that problems are ill-intended.
Mockery
I'm so annoyed I keep getting pitted with these sudden, annoying, unexpected or whatever sorta really tacky, cutting images of things to mock me, like I'm in some program, like I'm perverted to want love from adults.
Cool Orleans
I had this really cool friend supposedly from San Fransisco who had lots of cats. She was just all around the center of attention, whether or not she knows. She is 1 year older, a month, or maybe so, I think, shy. I remember because I saw her for her birthday, a bit after, once or twice, and she showed me she finally got some hip clothing. She knew the popular boy in her year, though born in October or November, from New Orleans, whose best friend died. She sat with him at pep rallies. He was so, like, attractive when I interacted with him, like at P.E., sometimes or at least once at length, with the classes separated into 4. The school was about 200 students per year. It seems like all we could think about was like oh should you have been on like the dance team? What about ballet, anyway? What was I thinking? What happens to people with dark hair? I did fit in. I did make flag team, but since my friend didn't I didn't do it. They train with band, 1 hour during the day, which would have replaced Art II, "Advanced" Drawing and Painting, and after school a lot. I guess it was a bit difficult, I mean they don't do this in junior high all the time. It seemed like I'd make it. Actually, I was hoping the boy would stay and I'd stay in it. The drama teacher left, too. Hardly anyone was in drama, and no one my age, the other few a bit older. That boy was in choir, too, and sang Titanic as a solo. I didn't try to get in Talented Music until later. I found I wanted to quit when I got older and heard it would have been better so much if I did it the 1st year with the other teacher who left. It was so sucky after my initial year! I guess a year of Talented Theater did it, too. The community theater had a dying agenda. I didn't do theater at NOCCA because Classical Instrumental Music for piano was more smart and connected the arts, better, and gave me more valuable tools. I might not have went back were I still in high school. It's not a reliable program and may be for mainstream New Orleanians. It was fun in the summer, but they don't let you board, since I went.
Continental Divide
People from South Carolina think they are very Southern, more than New Orleans. Georgia is special and feels more like the same. I'm guessing that anywhere other than Pennsylvania, Tennessee, Kentucky, maybe the Capitol, feel more Southern than New Orleans. Even places like Las Vegas feel more like barren and wild yet more civilized.
An' I Can' Fight This Feeling Anymore
What do you think of the funny feeling for whatever reason the guy actor carrying away darling Cosette in Les Misérables, seemed like he pointedly drew in the forces or whatever the word is, summoned, of Tim Burton, like he's a pedophile? I really don't believe in not doing something about anything, the way I never got online. The thing is I did get online, it so happened, when I was 20, well 21. Anyway, I wanted to IM with my friends and e-mail people. I just never thought of Blogger but probably should have known it was invented after awhile. I didn't even know which high school nor college I was going to until I went.
How shall I do it? 8>
Did you think it was a big deal it's Tim Burton's fault that all this popular stuff went out of style? Think of how he did it.
Stalking
After I used the luscious scrub at Bath & Body Works at age 20, I noticed they stopped selling it, for Christmas. Their products are shitty, now.
ma-a-ad
When the n word thing happened with Tim Burton's daughter, the Blackberry stopped going in style. Photobucket has video ads when loading. Twitter took down the option to see lots of pix at once, though in the past week you can flip through them. I NEED A NEW CELL PHONE.
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